Getting Nervous...

Posted by on Thursday, August 20, 2009

OK... so while I am super duper freaking excited at the thought of smaller boobs, part of me is pretty freaking nervous as well.

It isn't like I don't know anyone who has had the surgery. I can think of at least five people close to me that have had it done (apparently I like to hang with people with big boobs), and there are at least three people at work that have had it.

But...

I have always been the girl with the big boobs.

That is kind of my shtick.

Guys like 'em.

I hate 'em.

They get in the frigging way. They weight about a bazillion pounds. I can't find a proper fitting bra for less than about $150. I have back pain. They are ugly. They make running nearly impossible. And try golfing with big boobs - have fun with that one.

But what if something goes wrong? What if they don't heal properly? What if I end up lopsided? What if... arg... there are too many what ifs running through my head. So - I visit sites like this and look at how other people's boobs healed (Does this make me crazy? I sure hope not...).

I know it will all work out. I know it is going to hurt like hell (you know, since I paid the extra $4000 to lift the fuckers up and all... I am sure that is going to add to the hurt). But I know in the end I will be happier.

And I will be able to bounce a frigging quarter off them when I am done.

I look forward to the pencil test.

6 Comments

  1. Remind me to show you my seams some time.

    Eight years later, I have a couple of spots that I don't like the rest of the world seeing, but I wouldn't go back and change a thing.

    As a matter of fact, I would do it again and make them even smaller if I could.

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  2. My bff got a reduction about 5 years ago now and believe me she had all the same things running through her mind before going under the knife. She did have some problems with scarring in a few places, but over time she's gotten used to it and LOVES her boobs just the way they are now.

    She rocks bikini tops just because she can :)

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  3. I had the exact same thoughts. Exactly! They were so tied up in my identity. And I'll tell you, my identity has not suffered one bit with them being smaller now.

    Let's face it, we'll still always have huge honkers - the difference now is having manageable honkers!

    I've had no issues with scars - but I did have all sorts of things about perfection. I now see how plastic surgery could be really damaging to people's mental state. I became obsessed at times with how much more perfect they could be.. you know, like how the rest of me is perfect or how they were perfect before... *roll eyes*

    I'm going to dig out my blog posts from that time if you want. And yes, I totally checked out every single before and after I could find.

    xoxo
    give me a shout any time!

    My word verification is dinde which if I remember correctly is french for turkey.

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  4. I'm excited for you and your smaller boobs. As someone blessed with little boobs from the beginning, I can tell you that it is pretty awesome to be able to strap those puppies down with a sports bra and run around all over the place, comfortably. I think you'll be thrilled for the results!

    At the risk of sounding creepy and perverted, you and your tatas will be in my thoughts next week ;-)

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  5. I, too, went through those same feelings about my identity and wondering if I would still be attractive.... the fact is, I am cuter now. I can wear cute bras. I can wear cute tops. I FEEL better. And I like not being the woman with big bazongas.

    I then went through another period of wondering when I got divorced...I have large keloid scars on the sides.... and the reality is the men that have seen me in a bathing suit or (oh goodness) naked, haven't said anything and one told me when I pointed it out that he didn't even notice.

    Getting them reduced was the best decision I've made in my life.... ever. I ventured out three days later and I was back at work part-time (only because I was still tired) within a week.... because I felt fine and I couldn't stand staying home anymore. I literally had NO pain....

    You'll love it.... really.... don't sweat it!

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  6. The thing about our bodies is that we aren't perfect, and that is basically what makes us an individual. Would I get an implant in my right breast so it was the same size as lefty? Oh hells yes. And I hate that they are so different. But only super models are perfectly symmetrical like that.

    And I have to say I'm super jealous you are getting the lift.

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