The Year of the Quiet Carmen

Posted by on Friday, August 1, 2014

I just got my performance review for the year... and while not surprised at the things on it, I've decided to action on some of the comments.  I can honestly say that this year some of the comments hit hard - especially the ones that aren't true and are based on years old practices that I have made an effort to change.

This year (or at least the next while) is going to be the "Year of the Quiet Carmen".  Apparently I'm too confrontational and insular.  I guess knowing my job and expecting others to know theirs is too much to ask.  I guess dealing with my clients issues from the perspective of my part of the department is too much.

So, while not rolling over and playing dead, my department is going to find out what it's like without my comments and suggestions.  I'm tired of getting the side-eye from rocking the boat, when the boat we're on needs rocking.  I'm tired of not getting mentorship and support from above, because what I do in my job isn't what everyone else does and nobody seems to know what I do on a day-to-day basis.

I actually just found my job description in the past couple of weeks... and it turns out my job is to be a glorified checklist checker.  I can do that. I make awesome checkmarks.

I'm going to have to remind myself on many occasions (like before every staff meeting), that this is my year to be quiet.  It'll be hard, but apparently necessary.

I guess I'll just be doing my job, and not trying to make it more.  Theoretically less stress for me I guess...

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  1. Sigh. I totally know how you feel.
    I feel like I was put on this earth to achieve - not to sit on the GD'n sidelines and watch useless people do useless things. I want accomplishments and for others to grow and develop because of support from me. Useless boob people suck.

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