The Mindset of a Fat Girl

Posted by on Wednesday, March 16, 2016

I've been overweight pretty much my whole life. 

Not "My 600-lb Life" overweight, but overweight none the less. 

In the past five years, I've lost and gained the same 25-30 lbs no less than three times. 

It's simple really - the "better" or "more healthy" I eat, while limiting my calories to 1500 or less per day, I lose weight. 

I get to my goal, get complacent, and then stop doing what I know works. And that's tracking my food intake. 

Tonight, I lost a floor hockey final game. It sucked, but life goes on. On the way home, my first thought was "what could I have as a snack when I get home"... but I wasn't even hungry. It's like I wanted to to reward myself for working out for an hour with a treat. 

Even after losing 20+ lbs since the new year, I still have the mindset of a fat girl. Food is a reward. Food is a treat. 

But it doesn't need to be. I've got some good healthy recipes in my repertoire (thanks Pinterest). 

I need to start thinking about food as what it is - sustinence. While the odd treat is important (so I don't binge), I don't need treats. 

I need to stop yo-yo dieting. I feel better at the weight I'm at, and I know I'll feel better with another 10 lbs off. I need to be more active throughout the year, not just when the sports I normally play are in season. 

I need to give up my fat girl mindset. 

But it's hard. 

I'm a work in progress. 

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