I Thought I'd Heard it all Before...

Posted by on Wednesday, August 31, 2011

"Let's be friends".
"I'm not ready for a relationship right now".
"I just want to see you for casual sex".
"I have a live-in girlfriend".

What I didn't expect to hear from my live-in boyfriend of over a year is that he never loved me. 

Ever. 

I never saw it coming. I feel like I've been hit by a train. 

He thought maybe he could grow to love me.

I guess that didn't happen because now I have no boyfriend and a non-refundable cruise/airfare to deal with. 

Not to mention the sudden break-out in what seems like hives and the inability to eat or sleep. 

Or turn off my brain. 

I've gone through this before. It sucks balls. But in the end I always come out stronger. 

But honestly, I'm kind of tired of getting stronger and really just want to be happy. 

One day.

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  1. I am so sad to read this... I cringed actually, because that is the same exact spot I was in a few years ago... I wish you strength C and know you've got friends way out here on the internet who know you rock, that you're kind and caring, and that despite it really sucking, it's better to find out now then after it's too late... *hugs*

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  2. Oh and another thing... if the damn trip is in his name and can't be changed then the arsehole needs to pay you for it. I demanded that of my ex when he bailed on me weeks before we were scheduled to fly to Edmonton to meet my family. Ugh.

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  3. I'm so sorry, I hate that you are going through this. It sucks.

    I agree with Adri, he owes you for the trip. Get the cash from him and take a friend with you.

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  4. I am so sorry you're going through this Carm. I really hate when bad shit happens to good people!! Almost wrote goo people, I don't know what those would look like.. LOL.. Anyays, you are amazing, and I KNOW someone will have to see that soon. I just hope you will be able to trust in it once it happens after all of this!!

    I also would like to say, when you're feeling shitty, that saying about things making us stronger.. I want to hit people who say that!!

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  5. I'm so sorry to hear this - that is truly awful!
    Be careful with the rash - high stress can cause shingles - I know a few people that have had that happen - if it sticks around and gets really sore you definitely need to see a doctor.
    hugs to you! xo

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