I did it.
I deleted my online dating account.
I didn't just hide it, or tell myself not to log in... I deleted it all together. All the history of "likes" and "meet mes" and messages... gone.
I realized that online dating feeds all of my insecurities... with my body, with my tomboyish personality, with my lack of confidence in myself... with my inability to sometimes do what's best for me.
So I'm done.
I found that I like myself better as a single girl. I'm not waiting for the next email or text... I'm not wondering if I said the wrong thing... I'm not at the whim of a guy that says he's one type of person, but within days shows a completely different side of himself.
I'm going to spend some more time working on myself... and no, all of those insecurities won't disappear, and no, I don't want to change the core of myself, but the more comfortable I can become with myself, the happier I'll be and the better partner I may become in the future.
Things will happen when they're meant to happen. And right now isn't that time, and I'm not going to push it.