I had decided this two and a half years ago and went and lost 35 lbs., only to gain back almost 30 of those - mostly at the start of my last relationship.
Why is it that I feel like it's okay to be fat when I'm in a relationship?
Seriously... nothing screams "ROMANCE" more than a muffin top.
So, three months ago I went back to the drawing board. I started counting calories. Limiting myself to between 1200 and 1500 per day... not really looking at the composition of my intake because holy crap, I'm not going onto some wingnut keto, Atkins, no carb, all protein diet that I'll never be able to maintain.
Because really - potatoes and bread are my life.
I started weighing my food and tracking it in my Fatsecret app on my phone.
I started cooking dinners, and bringing my lunch to work.
Mid-September I added a game of floor hockey and a weekly aqua zumba course to my repertoire.
I'm down just over 25 lbs. in about 13 weeks.
I'm kind of addicted to seeing the number on the scale go down. No - this doesn't mean that I've got an eating disorder... but when you're as competitive as I am, seeing progress is a good thing.
I have 7.4 lbs. to go until my first goal - which is the weight that I got down to last time.
My secondary goal is to get my BMI into the "normal weight" range. And yes - I know that the BMI is a giant crock of shit, but I haven't been normal in a very long time (I started this journey in the Obese "Class 1" range, and now I'm in the middle of "Overweight").
That's another 22.5 lbs. Not sure if I'll make it all the way there... but it's something to strive to.
I'll just be happy if I can stay in ONE-derland and maybe one day maintain a relationship without getting fat again.