I Feel the Need to Kick the Universe in the Balls...

by - Tuesday, August 18, 2009

I need to simmer down.

I just yelled off my balcony at the guys doing renovations next door.

For no other reason that I am getting a little tired of cancer affecting those around me.

My BFF since grade ten is going to have a hysterectomy.

At age 32.

She wanted kids. I think she would have been a great mom (and that is not to say she can't be a mom... but she really wanted to have her own kids).

And cancer is taking that away from her.

My first meeting with my BBF happened on the basketball court. Back when we went to rival junior high schools she was my check and I think I made fun of her and perhaps even hurt her... but then we became besties when we met up in senior high school.

Even when she dated the guy I was totally in love with in high school.

Even when we went through almost a whole summer without talking (and I honestly couldn't tell you why... I just know that we were both pissed about something).

Even though we haven't lived in the same city since we were 18 years old.

And now she has to go through this. It isn't fair.

She's a good person.

Why did it happen to her?

I will never understand how the universe works.

All I know is that I wish I could kick it in the balls. The universe that is. And cancer.

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  1. This made me cry. I like that you're pissed off for me.. and that you screamed at cancer for me. I'm sorry that I dated the guy you liked forever and that we didn't talk almost an entire summer. (I must be blocking this out).

    I'm so glad you're my best friend.

  2. Don't be sorry you dated the boy... he was too short anyways. Just know that a lot of people (those who know you and those who don't) are rooting for you. You are stronger than you think you are.

    I'm glad you're my best friend too.

  3. And that is exactly why I am agnostic. If there really is a higher power, why would they punish someone with such a thing?

  4. im sorry to hear that!! For some reason life just isn't fair all the time, and it really stinks when it negatively affects those people we love!