I Can't Fight {this feeling} Anymore...

by - Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Well, my title is a little misleading - after I wrote the I Can't Fight Anymore... I started singing 80's rock ballads in my head and then I had to add the rest...

I have decided to stop fighting things. Not because I am a quitter, but because I need to get on with my life... both my personal life and my professional life. I have decided that when I visit with the lawyer tomorrow that I would like to offer my ex the $20,000 that he is asking for (minus one-half of the legal fees), pay him out in cash and get some sort of iron-clad agreement from him that he will f*ck off and never contact me again. I hope that when I meet with the bank, that I can remortgage for an amount that will cover the $20,000 for my ex and my student loan - then I am debt free except my mortgage - pretty good for turning 30 next month. In talking with my bank lady she seemed pretty confident that things would go okay - and considering I would have no debt except my mortgage things are looking pretty good for me. I just hope that my ex will sign the papers so and not get greedier in the meantime.

I have also decided to stop fighting at work. There should never be a time that you are so emotionally attached to your job that you cry at meetings. Never. I mean it is a good thing that I care, but I should not care so much that it interferes with my life (or lack thereof it)... so I can't put my energy into that anymore. My biggest concern is that I don't lose pay because they are changing my job description... but if they want me to friggin' lick envelopes all day I guess I will. One thing that I will not do is kiss ass... I have never been, and never will be an ass-kisser. But that said, I can do my job without causing waves myself if I just do it, show up at 8:30, leave at 4:30 and try no to buy into all of the crap that is going on.

That all said - my Cougars kicked butt last night and are into the third round of the playoffs... We won 8-2 last night - by the end it was like watching an all-star game with all the dipsy-doodling going on. But we are guaranteed another two home games and that is good!

GO CATS GO!


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  1. Try not to worry about it too much Carm..he is being a dink and everything will work out for the best in the end. If you want a mini vacation, there is always a room for you at the Inn on Sabrina Rd.

    Take Care
    Love me.

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